Half Asleep & Full of Love

by LaAerial

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about

I started this mixtape project 2 years ago while I was living abroad. Last year I raised $1500 (after fees) from the generosity of friends and strangers alike. I abandoned these songs and recording in general after becoming disappointed with not having the means to complete them properly. I decided to finish what I started even if I had to do it at home on my laptop.

"Half Asleep & Full of Love" is a story. I was lost. I was in love, I was lost in love. “SOBER" describes the latter part of the tale when I begin to wake myself up from the slumber I had slipped into. "The REAL Him" is another after thought, the realization that who I loved, wasn't WHO I loved. “Quiet" is more in the middle of the story where I broke free but was still somehow bound to this experience. In Speak to Me, I was reaching out to GOD to ask what to do, musically and regarding my career I was so discouraged and really needed guidance. When I wrote “Heartstrings" I thought I understood what happened but it was just the tip of the iceberg so to speak. "I'd Rather Be" is actually the most recent recording. I wrote it last week out of sheer frustration with trying to perfect the other 7 songs. It is about staying in a relationship that isn't the greatest just because you'd prefer being miserable with them then happy alone. It's not really a true story but I feel like it was a message many could relate to and it came to me very fluidly so I chose to record it. "Live to Love Another Day" is about loving someone back to health. Meaning having love fix 2 broken hearts and even if they aren’t meant to be together that their healing love will allow them to live on and love someone else. It’s a fantasy that I tried to paint with words. I have the secret desire to be in a super hero love affair. :-) And finally "Dream of You" is the oldest written song on the record. It was the 2nd song I ever wrote on guitar. A guitar I borrowed from my friend Chrissy in LA.
I heard this track and it inspired me to re-arrange it and make it into a new song. Thank you for listening!

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released June 4, 2014

All Lyrics*, Melodies and Arrangements Written & Recorded in my bedroom
(Internal Macbook Pro Microphone/Garageband) while living in London, Tokyo & New York. For this mixtape, I chose most tracks from Drake and his producers because I love his sound. All Production credits are listed below: (according to the internet)

1. SOBER (Noah “40” Shebib, Adrian X)
2. The REAL Him (a whoooooole bunch of people... check Wiki)
3. Quiet (Noah “40” Shebib, Rico Love, Drake)
4. Speak To Me [interlude] (Noah “40” Shebib, Chantal Kreviazuk)
5. Heartstrings (J Dilla)
6. I'd Rather Be... (Noah "40" Shebib, Thomas Jake One)
7. Live to Love Another Day (Ryan Leslie)
8. Dream of You* (Noah "40" Shebib)

This project has not been mastered or even mixed outside my headphones.
I wanted to finish what I started so I can grow, learn, get better and share that process with you. I finally built up enough courage. If your "bionic ears" allow you to hear babies crying, birds chirping, off-key singing, the crinkling of frozen veggies keeping my computer cool,
my roommates in the background or any other anomalies on this recording...well that's just a consequence of the circumstances. Someone told me:

"...it is better to DO SOMETHING [how ever menial] than to do nothing at all." Thanks for lending me your ears.

Lyrics*, Melodies and Arrangements © 2014 LaAerial & Essentia Entertainment
Music Production Copyrights belonging to their respective owners.
*Excerpt taken from “That’s The Way Love Goes” on intro.

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LaAerial London, UK

LaAerial has been described as “a beautiful singer” by Amel Larrieux. She's an established & well travelled performer having personally booked performances in LA, NY, China, Thailand, Italy, London & most recently Tokyo. She has independently recorded & released a mixtape entitled Half Asleep & Full of Love. The R&B/Hip-Hop tracks laced with silky vocals & heavy harmonies are being well received. ... more

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Track Name: SOBER
Have you ever been so in love
It was like a drug and you couldn't get sober?
You couldn't get sober

It gets hard to act like I don't care when I do
I try to hold it back but it shows on my face when I speak of you
I keep it bottled up inside cause I don't want no one to know that I still do love you

Cause they might think I'm crazy, say that I'm a fool
How could I still care for somebody like you
When you barely have a heart that you don't know how to use
What started out as love ended up as abuse

I thought I told ya, I used to be an addict but I'm sober
Was a fiend for his love and now it's over
I'm glad I'm sober (2X)

They won't believe
Because they'll see through my lies
How could I be sober if I still cry sometimes
You know that love doesn't fade
You know that time doesn't change a thing

I must be crazy
I am a fool
Still seem to care for somebody like you
Though you barely have a heart that you don't know how to use
It started out as love but it ended in abuse

I know I told ya, I used to be an addict and I'm sober
But I still fiend for his love cause it's not over
I'm not sober

I know I told ya, I used to be an addict and I'm sober
But I still fiend for his love cause it's not over
I'm not sober
Track Name: The REAL Him
He’s just another one
A poser, phony, a fake
He pretended to care
And all my love he did take
I gave it up freely
Cause I thought that he was the one
My husband, my baby, the father of my unborn son

But he is just another poser
He is just another fake
I wonder if I knew The REAL Him 
Or if he knew my heart would break

Over and over again
After this is over 
I'll never trust again

I wonder if I knew him
I wonder if I knew him
I wonder if I knew him
I wonder if I knew him

I could go on pretending
Like I’m alright
And bury my feelings deep within
But I still cry sometimes
You know that I truly loved you
Even though all your lies
It's a shame you couldn’t be yourself
You were playing somebody else
Playing somebody else

I wonder if I knew him
I wonder if I knew him
I wonder if I knew him
I wonder if I knew him
Track Name: Quiet
I know that I walked away
Without saying a thing
But I had to get on that plane just to keep myself sane
Cause I was really trying
While you were still just lying
So I had to let you go

But I still miss you sometimes
Wish you were in my life
Cause there’s one thing I know that this silence just doesn't seem right

It’s much too quiet
I’m dying from the silence
I miss the sound of your voice
Even though it was my choice

It’s much too quiet
I’m dying from the silence
I miss the sound of your voice
Even though it was my choice

You can pretend like
I’m never on your mind
But I know that’s not the case
She’ll never be like I (I, I, I)
Cause I’m one of a kind
So I’m waiting for the day
When you'll break this silence

It’s much too quiet
I’m dying from the silence
I miss the sound of your voice
Even though it was my choice

It’s much too quiet
I’m dying from the silence
I miss the sound of your voice
Even though it was my choice

Even though there’s strength inside

Even though there’s strength inside your silence
I will survive it
Cause I’m a survivor
So I’ll keep on fighting

Even though there’s strength inside your silence
I will survive it
Cause I’m a survivor
So I’ll keep on fighting
Track Name: Speak to Me [Interlude]
Speak to me
Let the words flow from your mouth

I won’t say a thing
I am listening
Speak to me

Speak to me
Track Name: Heartstrings
Heartstrings [Lyrics]

You're playing on my heart
Playing on my heart

You're playing on my heartstrings like a guitar
Claiming that you love me when that’s a farce
You didn’t have to carry on this way
You could’ve let me know it was just a game

You're playing on my heartstrings like a guitar
Claiming that you love me when that’s a farce
You didn’t have to carry on this way
You could’ve let me know it was just a game

I thought that this love was going far
All the way up to Mars
Cause you and I were both born stars (Yeah)
You taught me a lesson I’ll admit
But inside I’m feeling salty
(No More Sugar)
And right now I just want it all to go away
I can’t believe how you deceived me
You played me so cold baby

You're playing on my heartstrings like a guitar
Claiming that you love me when that’s a farce
You didn’t have to carry on this way
You could’ve let me know it was just a game

You're playing on my heartstrings like a guitar
Claiming that you love me when that’s a farce
You didn’t have to carry on this way
You could’ve let me know it was just a game

I played my part
(In this fairytale illusion)
Holding hands in the dark
(My heart and head filled with delusions)
Oh but you were so smart
(Told me lies straight to my face)
I fed your EGO so much food that it’ll never go away

You're playing on my heartstrings like a guitar
Claiming that you love me when that’s a farce
You didn’t have to carry on this way
You could’ve let me know it was just a game
Track Name: I'd Rather Be...
I’d Rather Be… [Lyrics]

We could do so much better
But we won’t
We’ll stay right here together
Cause if we don’t
It all comes tumbling down
This little house we found
So you know we can’t let this thing go, no

Love, it seems a mystery
At times I feel confused
But I’d rather be in misery if it means that I’m with you
I’d rather be in misery if it means that I’m with you
I’d rather be….
If it means that I’m with you (with you)

Bad can feel so good, so good
Bad, feels so good, feels so good, so good
Bad
Can feel so good
Bad feel so good
So good

I’d rather be with you
I’d rather be
I’d rather be with you

I’d rather be here with you
Track Name: Live to Love Another Day
You and I ended up in the same storm
Both of us were drowning 
Until I gave my hand to you
Then finally we made it back to the shore
And I was so certain that God saved my life to love you

But the wind kept blowing and you turned so cold
I never thought that we would end up at a cross road
You said that you were gonna love me through the winter
And though we tried we barely made it to December

You saved me from a thousand heartaches
As I rescued you
Now we’ll live to love another
Love another 

You saved me from a thousand heartaches
As I rescued you
Now we’ll live to love another 
Love Another Day

I was lost
You were lost
We found each other 
Look at what we’ve been through
And all that we’ve discovered
Even though I’m not your girl
You’re still a part of my world
Cause I thought that I would be your wife
But things don’t always work out right
I guess that’s just a part of life
Everything happens as it should
If I could change the past you know I would
But it wouldn’t do us any good

You saved me from a thousand heartaches
As I rescued you
Now we’ll live to love another
Love another 

You saved me from a thousand heartaches
As I rescued you
Now we’ll live to love another 
Love Another Day

Broken hearts beat again
(Yes they do they do)
Broken hearts beat again
(Yeah you know it’s true)
Broken will beat again

We will live to love another day

You saved me from a thousand heartaches
As I rescued you
Now we’ll live to love another 
Love Another Day
Track Name: Dream of You
"Like a moth to a flame
Burned by the fire
My love is blind
Can’t you see my desire"

Sometimes I dream that you’re in my bed
(You're in my bed)
You’re next to me and you’re mine
You kiss me slow
Like you don’t want it to end
But when I wake up
I’m all alone again, again

I dream of you
When I sleep at night
I be holding my pillow tight
I pray for you
Hoping you’ll be mine
And it’s not just in my mind

I still believe
That you’re someplace dreaming of me
If we both conceive (use your imagination)
Then one day we will meet
And you’ll make me see
How much my GOD loves me

Because I dream and I pray that you will be mine
All mine

I dream of you
When I sleep at night
I be holding my pillow tight
I pray for you
Hoping you’ll be mine
And it’s not just in my mind